Just another day

Well it is still the same old same old no job nothing going well but school is a plus it is going well and I am excited with each assignment I take and knowing I will be able to move forward after all is said and done is the only positive point in my life right now. This time of year is suppose to me merry and bright with family and friends but right now that outcome is so not happening. Sorry for the negative thoughts but that is how I feel and needed to just say it out loud! Weight is still rising and no outlet for that either.....hope everyone is doing well and you guys are smiling!

A good note

Hey everyone sorry been away for so long just a lot going on no good news on the job front still sucks and ideas please pass them along! I did get accepted to school so I am very excited and it is one step closer to a good future. I hope everyone is doing well I am still not on a good track on my weight it just keeps getting higher and higher hopefully soon I can get back on track.

Lost

Hey everyone sorry I have been out of touch for a while just so much going on and I am just lost.....the job front sucks my weight is horrible and I do not see anything positive coming my way for some time. Trying to keep the attitude upbeat but at times I just feel like a failure and nothing is right with the world. I know so many of us a struggling and I really don't have the right to complain but shit I am so over it! Life does not need to be this hard why can't I get the job why can't I get off my ass and get back into shape something has to change soon or I may explode.........ok venting is good.....

STAY VISIBLY SMOOTH DOVE REVIEW

Hey everyone well I was asked to review Doves Ultimate Visibly smooth deodorant. I am very excited because this is the first product I have been asked to review so let me know how I do:

Dove has been a part of my household for as long as I can remember and since I have very sensitive skin Dove soap as well as the rest of their line of products work well for me. So when I was asked to review the deodorant I was like YES! The first thing I noticed was the great scent I received wild rose and it is not over done so you don't feel like that is what everyone is going to notice because sometimes you can get one that the scent is just to overwhelming that you feel self confident. One of the things that is unique about this product is it helps to minimize the visual appearance of hair over time so when you use it on a regular basic you will be stubble free for longer. I know right that is the best thing I can think of I so need that my stubble is rough at times but since I have been using this product I have noticed a difference for the better and highly recommend it for you. It also has natural extracts and 1/4 translucent moisturizers as well as contains Pro-Epil complex. You will feel the difference within weeks and notice your underarms hair feels softer, fine and easy to remove and as I stated above it really works! I also love the new way you can move the deodorant up when you need more I hate the little wheel they usually have at the bottom of the bottle I usually cannot move it and it gets old after time but this product has an arrow at the right and the whole bottom moves awesome! I have to say in all this product is something I will us over and over and I welcome it to the Dove family in my home and I hope all of you will try it and get the same wonderful results I did. Visit Dove at http://www.dove.us/visiblysmooth.

Back on Track

Went to the Doctor today and well she told me all the things I know have to do to get myself back on track. And my weight is at 330 lbs.....I know I know it is high but I really thought it was well around 400 so to me I am on a good track. I am back on my regular eating and I am suppose to lose 15 lbs in 1 mth no problem I know I can - now off to find a gym or somewhere to sweat keep your fingers crossed!

It is time to get back on the wagon

Hey everyone I am back in NO and loving it! I have been very bad this past week but after looking over some pics I have taken over the last few months I am so ready to get back on my routine. Going to find a YMCA next week so I can get back into pool time and really set myself up to do well. I hope you all doing well and we can all reconnect soon I so need the kind words and any advice you have.

Thanks!

Crazy times

Hey everyone sorry I have been away for so long but so much has been going on and no time to post. I moved to New Orleans the first week of July and my feet hit the ground running. I have been working for my old employer in Florida for the last few weeks and I am exhausted! So no time to work out no time to eat right etc.....I so want my life back. Working 7 days a week 12 hours a day takes a huge toll on you and I am so not proud of this. I need my life back to normal where I work have me time and also just time to think about how to improve on my eating and life. I am going home next week and hopefully I can get my life back on track. Miss you guys hope to back on soon.

The new journey begins

I hope everyone is doing well I have some news to share today....In the next week I am moving to NOLA and hoping this new journey will put me back into the attitude that change is good. So much to do and not enough time to do it in. I am so thankful for all of the wonderful people in my life (including all of you) that support me at all times I am excited and also worried my life has been such a downer for so long that getting out of it has been hard but I do really feel that this change is going to be the best thing I need right now and I have hopes that all good things do come to those that wait. So please keep me in your thoughts and thanks to this blog I can at least keep in contact with all of you.

We can never win can we

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This is just the icing on the cake for me we can never win either we work out or we are to Fat what is it people we need the machines to work on to help with our routine but this going to far. I am so tired of this and tired of people and their attitudes toward people who have weight problems. I have enough to deal with don't make it any worse I know I am fat I know I need to work I know what I need to do so let me do it!

I am a movin

Hey everyone today is a productive day. Working on my projects that need to be done in the next week and also coming up with a new strategy for my weight goals. I am hoping in the coming weeks I can get myself back up and going and not let anything keep me down. I hate this up and down stuff each day is different and I just hate how I feel. I ready to be that person I was over a year ago who is on track and knows what is important good health and going for my goals. I just keep faith that I will get back on track and also look forward to the many changes coming into my life in the next few weeks. Keep me in your thoughts all positive energy is really needed.

Weight is arising

Today I went to the Doctor for a check up I have been putting it off for a while but knew it was time and of course we have to have a weigh in. Well I was actually sure I had gained all of my weight back (322 lbs) and I was right but it is also plus 5 lbs. I am not sure how I feel about this. I have been stuck in the rut for so long trying to climb my way out seems there is no way to do it. I am feeling all of the things I felt before I lost the weight leg pain, hard time standing, not wanting to go out in public and so many more. I know I brought this on myself and I really do know better but it is here and I have to find a way to get back on track. In the next month there are a lot of changes coming my way and I think once I get through that I might be able to get back on track with my weight. I know I have to find a way to get back in my positive mode and just do it! I am the only one who can make this journey real and I have to find a way to do it and stop making excuses and just look inside for who I really am. I hope you all will be patient with me and still hang around I am really going to need all the support I can get and any advice you have is greatly needed. But in the end I am the only person who can make this happen.

Times are a changing

Hello everyone sorry I have been away so long just working on some things and I will share soon. It is funny how life is just going along and then you decide you need a change. My weight is still the same and I am just not ready to try again but I am going to make an effort to put the right foot forward soon. Hope you all are doing well I miss you guys1

One more day

Hey everyone sorry I have been so silent just working through some things and not much time for posting. Still working on my weight which is really getting me down and I cannot seem to find the motivation I need to get up and go.............just taking day by day and hoping I will get it in gear soon.

Trying something new

Hello everyone hope you all are having a great weekend. I am doing well PT is going ok and I am actually able to get around a lot better and even drive a lone yeah!

I am going to be trying some new things in the next few weeks and changing up my routine to what will fit for me now since my surgery. I am looking at ways to change up my eating habits as well as my exercise program. Any suggestions would be welcome and I am always looking for any great recipes. Keep in touch and I hope to be posting more often soon.

Finding my way

This week has been such and eye opener for me.....PT is going ok but my ankle is still a little weak and I am unable to move forward with my exercises so I have been working overtime this weekend getting ready for next week so fingers crossed and good thoughts I am going to need them. I also have been working on getting my eating under control again and taking a lot thing out of my habits and putting the good things back in. It has been so hard for me to stay on track I am a bored eater. I eat when I am bored and being unable to go out just to go to the market is so frustrating for me and I can only watch so much TV I am so over all of it! I am ready to move forward and get myself back to where I was and then move on down to my goal. I know it is going to be such a challenge just to get back where I was before all of this but I am actually looking forward to walking again and just going back to the gym.

The thing I have learned the most from this experience is to never give up because if you do you will only disappoint yourself.

Still hanging in there!

Hey everyone I have not been lost just really busy with PT and getting things back to some kind of normal. I have been working on the 30 lbs I have gained and trying to get back into a regular routine which is tuff considering you get our of touch with what you know is right and what you want to do (be lazy ha)! But I had a set back I twisted my ankle last week (we had snow) and it has been really sore and tuff the pain is more than I can take so I think I might have to take some pain pills (which I hate) but really need. The PT director and I feel I am on track just need to keep it up and just stay focused she always tells me there is a light at the end of the tunnel just stay focused and it will come......not soon enough for me.

I hope everyone is doing well I miss chatting with everyone....just remember stay true to who you are and your goals will be a reality!

Plus Size Models

What do you guys think?

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Oh no is that a pulled muscle?

Hey everyone hope your new year is starting off on the right foot.

Pt is going well worked on walking without crutches it went ok my balance is an issue but fingers crossed I am one step closer to being normal again. But I think I pulled a muscle in my left leg (surgery was on right) and now I am battling just standing up! I was telling my Mom I think I need to use my walker again just to get around LOL! But each day is better and better I have high hopes for a great recovery soon.

How have all of you been doing? Still having computer problems (not able to get on blog and see post) so please keep in touch I miss everyone!

Happy New Year Welcome 2010!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a safe and joyous day. I am working on my new goals for 2010 and hoping I can start them soon. Ankle is ok today some pain still but working on my PT as we speak. Let's all start this year off with a bang!

Blog time

Hey everyone hope you all had a wonderful holiday! Still having computer problems so I am not able to see your comments which are greatly appreciated so please keep posting I am hoping to be back up and running 100% soon. Hang in in with me!