Happy New Year Welcome 2010!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a safe and joyous day. I am working on my new goals for 2010 and hoping I can start them soon. Ankle is ok today some pain still but working on my PT as we speak. Let's all start this year off with a bang!

Blog time

Hey everyone hope you all had a wonderful holiday! Still having computer problems so I am not able to see your comments which are greatly appreciated so please keep posting I am hoping to be back up and running 100% soon. Hang in in with me!

Merry Christmas everyone!

Hoping you guys all have a wonderful Christmas and enjoy all of your time with your families!

30 lbs and Counting!

I went for a check up with my family doctor on Tuesday and was expecting to get on the scale and I figured I might have gained about 20 lbs but my surprise was waiting 30 LBS!!! That means I am only 10 lbs from being 300 lbs again........I am so upset about this! I knew I would gain but this is so not acceptable! All of my friends are saying it will be ok you will do better when you can get around more....well they don't understand that 30 lbs is a lot on me and being even of few pounds near 300 has but me in a tail spin. The Doc put me on Prozac he said I needed to relax and not worry about the weight...come on Doc a pill is not going to help me to not worry about this..........I have to start all over and I feel that all I have accomplished in the past year is for nothing..........and that I have failed myself more than anyone. I just cannot get over it....I know how this happened and I know what to do but just knowing I am right back where I started is bumming me out!

I am back at the gym in the pool for my PT seems to help some I am still having a lot of ankle pain and the Doc is worried. Fingers crossed that in the next 6 weeks (more pt) that I will be able to get back where I need to mentally and physically.

Not off the hook just yet!

Yesterday I went for my monthly check up with the Doctor and he says I am doing well but I do need to have 6 more weeks of PT. I am happy but sad also I was so hoping to be able to drive and be able to get back to my life. But it could be worse I am just glad I am getting there and soon it will be all worth it. I will be working in the pool at the gym (PT says it will help the healing process) so I am off to do that hopefully this weekend (I am so at the mercy of others to drive me. I am just glad I am at this stage in my recovery and I can see the light at the end of tunnel.

Success

Tuesday at PT I got to put on shoes on both feet and now that means I am well on my way! I have to use crutches for the next few weeks and then hopefully fingers crossed sometime in January I am on the go. I was asked to work on my PT in the pool at the gym so off to the gym I go next week I actually missed it funny :)! I cannot wait to get back to my regular routine and get back to my goals. Happy Saturday everyone!

One step closer

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving I did! Tomorrow is another PT apt and I am looking forward to maybe putting on a real shoe and being able to walk with a crutch! Fingers crossed everyone I need all the positive thoughts I can get. Still having a lot of pain but I was told this is normal and not to read to much into it right now. So off to PT I go and I hope to have some good news tomorrow.

Happy Day everyone!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I went to PT this week and I have 8 weeks to get back on my two feet yeah! I am so excited and really sore but I know in the long run I will be back where I need to be. They did tell me when I start back at the gym that it will be right back from the beginning which I am so not happy about but if it means I will have zero pain from now on I AM READY FOR IT!

I hope you all have a wonderful day and spend as much time being Thankful for all we have I have thankful for all of you!

Sorry Computer Suck!

Sorry I have been away so long having a lot of computer problems and for some reason I was able to get on today. I hope everyone is doing well. I am doing better still have a lot of ankle pain I started Physical therapy this week boy does it hurt! OUCH but it is for the best and hopefully by the end of December I will be 100% again....fingers crossed.

Hope all is well with everyone and you all are getting ready for the holiday season I know I am. Hopefully I can post more soon miss everyone!

I am still here!

Hey everyone! I am back.....sorry for the long pause but until today I was not allowed to get off the couch....ha.....The surgery went well I am in a lot of pain but I am able to get around with my walker (I know right ha) but I am so bored out of my mind and it has only been 9 days! The Doc gave me a new cast yesterday I have to wear for 3 weeks then it will be up to him to see where I stand and what is next. I did get good news the time need to heal is now only 3 months I know I know that is still a long time but it could be 5 so I am so happy with that. I hope to be able to get out soon staying on the couch is killing me and I hate it but I know I have to do it to achieve my ultimate goal and I keep that positive thought in my head everyday.

Thanks everyone for your wonderful post they help more than you know so please keep me in your thoughts and hopefully I can get back on here more in the next week!