Weight is arising

Today I went to the Doctor for a check up I have been putting it off for a while but knew it was time and of course we have to have a weigh in. Well I was actually sure I had gained all of my weight back (322 lbs) and I was right but it is also plus 5 lbs. I am not sure how I feel about this. I have been stuck in the rut for so long trying to climb my way out seems there is no way to do it. I am feeling all of the things I felt before I lost the weight leg pain, hard time standing, not wanting to go out in public and so many more. I know I brought this on myself and I really do know better but it is here and I have to find a way to get back on track. In the next month there are a lot of changes coming my way and I think once I get through that I might be able to get back on track with my weight. I know I have to find a way to get back in my positive mode and just do it! I am the only one who can make this journey real and I have to find a way to do it and stop making excuses and just look inside for who I really am. I hope you all will be patient with me and still hang around I am really going to need all the support I can get and any advice you have is greatly needed. But in the end I am the only person who can make this happen.

Times are a changing

Hello everyone sorry I have been away so long just working on some things and I will share soon. It is funny how life is just going along and then you decide you need a change. My weight is still the same and I am just not ready to try again but I am going to make an effort to put the right foot forward soon. Hope you all are doing well I miss you guys1

One more day

Hey everyone sorry I have been so silent just working through some things and not much time for posting. Still working on my weight which is really getting me down and I cannot seem to find the motivation I need to get up and go.............just taking day by day and hoping I will get it in gear soon.

Trying something new

Hello everyone hope you all are having a great weekend. I am doing well PT is going ok and I am actually able to get around a lot better and even drive a lone yeah!

I am going to be trying some new things in the next few weeks and changing up my routine to what will fit for me now since my surgery. I am looking at ways to change up my eating habits as well as my exercise program. Any suggestions would be welcome and I am always looking for any great recipes. Keep in touch and I hope to be posting more often soon.

Finding my way

This week has been such and eye opener for me.....PT is going ok but my ankle is still a little weak and I am unable to move forward with my exercises so I have been working overtime this weekend getting ready for next week so fingers crossed and good thoughts I am going to need them. I also have been working on getting my eating under control again and taking a lot thing out of my habits and putting the good things back in. It has been so hard for me to stay on track I am a bored eater. I eat when I am bored and being unable to go out just to go to the market is so frustrating for me and I can only watch so much TV I am so over all of it! I am ready to move forward and get myself back to where I was and then move on down to my goal. I know it is going to be such a challenge just to get back where I was before all of this but I am actually looking forward to walking again and just going back to the gym.

The thing I have learned the most from this experience is to never give up because if you do you will only disappoint yourself.

Still hanging in there!

Hey everyone I have not been lost just really busy with PT and getting things back to some kind of normal. I have been working on the 30 lbs I have gained and trying to get back into a regular routine which is tuff considering you get our of touch with what you know is right and what you want to do (be lazy ha)! But I had a set back I twisted my ankle last week (we had snow) and it has been really sore and tuff the pain is more than I can take so I think I might have to take some pain pills (which I hate) but really need. The PT director and I feel I am on track just need to keep it up and just stay focused she always tells me there is a light at the end of the tunnel just stay focused and it will come......not soon enough for me.

I hope everyone is doing well I miss chatting with everyone....just remember stay true to who you are and your goals will be a reality!

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Oh no is that a pulled muscle?

Hey everyone hope your new year is starting off on the right foot.

Pt is going well worked on walking without crutches it went ok my balance is an issue but fingers crossed I am one step closer to being normal again. But I think I pulled a muscle in my left leg (surgery was on right) and now I am battling just standing up! I was telling my Mom I think I need to use my walker again just to get around LOL! But each day is better and better I have high hopes for a great recovery soon.

How have all of you been doing? Still having computer problems (not able to get on blog and see post) so please keep in touch I miss everyone!

Happy New Year Welcome 2010!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a safe and joyous day. I am working on my new goals for 2010 and hoping I can start them soon. Ankle is ok today some pain still but working on my PT as we speak. Let's all start this year off with a bang!

Blog time

Hey everyone hope you all had a wonderful holiday! Still having computer problems so I am not able to see your comments which are greatly appreciated so please keep posting I am hoping to be back up and running 100% soon. Hang in in with me!