The new journey begins

I hope everyone is doing well I have some news to share today....In the next week I am moving to NOLA and hoping this new journey will put me back into the attitude that change is good. So much to do and not enough time to do it in. I am so thankful for all of the wonderful people in my life (including all of you) that support me at all times I am excited and also worried my life has been such a downer for so long that getting out of it has been hard but I do really feel that this change is going to be the best thing I need right now and I have hopes that all good things do come to those that wait. So please keep me in your thoughts and thanks to this blog I can at least keep in contact with all of you.

We can never win can we

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This is just the icing on the cake for me we can never win either we work out or we are to Fat what is it people we need the machines to work on to help with our routine but this going to far. I am so tired of this and tired of people and their attitudes toward people who have weight problems. I have enough to deal with don't make it any worse I know I am fat I know I need to work I know what I need to do so let me do it!

I am a movin

Hey everyone today is a productive day. Working on my projects that need to be done in the next week and also coming up with a new strategy for my weight goals. I am hoping in the coming weeks I can get myself back up and going and not let anything keep me down. I hate this up and down stuff each day is different and I just hate how I feel. I ready to be that person I was over a year ago who is on track and knows what is important good health and going for my goals. I just keep faith that I will get back on track and also look forward to the many changes coming into my life in the next few weeks. Keep me in your thoughts all positive energy is really needed.

Weight is arising

Today I went to the Doctor for a check up I have been putting it off for a while but knew it was time and of course we have to have a weigh in. Well I was actually sure I had gained all of my weight back (322 lbs) and I was right but it is also plus 5 lbs. I am not sure how I feel about this. I have been stuck in the rut for so long trying to climb my way out seems there is no way to do it. I am feeling all of the things I felt before I lost the weight leg pain, hard time standing, not wanting to go out in public and so many more. I know I brought this on myself and I really do know better but it is here and I have to find a way to get back on track. In the next month there are a lot of changes coming my way and I think once I get through that I might be able to get back on track with my weight. I know I have to find a way to get back in my positive mode and just do it! I am the only one who can make this journey real and I have to find a way to do it and stop making excuses and just look inside for who I really am. I hope you all will be patient with me and still hang around I am really going to need all the support I can get and any advice you have is greatly needed. But in the end I am the only person who can make this happen.

Times are a changing

Hello everyone sorry I have been away so long just working on some things and I will share soon. It is funny how life is just going along and then you decide you need a change. My weight is still the same and I am just not ready to try again but I am going to make an effort to put the right foot forward soon. Hope you all are doing well I miss you guys1

One more day

Hey everyone sorry I have been so silent just working through some things and not much time for posting. Still working on my weight which is really getting me down and I cannot seem to find the motivation I need to get up and go.............just taking day by day and hoping I will get it in gear soon.

Trying something new

Hello everyone hope you all are having a great weekend. I am doing well PT is going ok and I am actually able to get around a lot better and even drive a lone yeah!

I am going to be trying some new things in the next few weeks and changing up my routine to what will fit for me now since my surgery. I am looking at ways to change up my eating habits as well as my exercise program. Any suggestions would be welcome and I am always looking for any great recipes. Keep in touch and I hope to be posting more often soon.

Finding my way

This week has been such and eye opener for me.....PT is going ok but my ankle is still a little weak and I am unable to move forward with my exercises so I have been working overtime this weekend getting ready for next week so fingers crossed and good thoughts I am going to need them. I also have been working on getting my eating under control again and taking a lot thing out of my habits and putting the good things back in. It has been so hard for me to stay on track I am a bored eater. I eat when I am bored and being unable to go out just to go to the market is so frustrating for me and I can only watch so much TV I am so over all of it! I am ready to move forward and get myself back to where I was and then move on down to my goal. I know it is going to be such a challenge just to get back where I was before all of this but I am actually looking forward to walking again and just going back to the gym.

The thing I have learned the most from this experience is to never give up because if you do you will only disappoint yourself.

Still hanging in there!

Hey everyone I have not been lost just really busy with PT and getting things back to some kind of normal. I have been working on the 30 lbs I have gained and trying to get back into a regular routine which is tuff considering you get our of touch with what you know is right and what you want to do (be lazy ha)! But I had a set back I twisted my ankle last week (we had snow) and it has been really sore and tuff the pain is more than I can take so I think I might have to take some pain pills (which I hate) but really need. The PT director and I feel I am on track just need to keep it up and just stay focused she always tells me there is a light at the end of the tunnel just stay focused and it will come......not soon enough for me.

I hope everyone is doing well I miss chatting with everyone....just remember stay true to who you are and your goals will be a reality!

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