My new journey begins tomorrow

Tomorrow is surgery day! I am really nervous and trying to wrap my mind around how long this actually going to take. I really do not do anything for me so I have decided this will be my new journey to the new me! I will get through this just like I have on my weight loss in the last year and when this is all said and done I will be a new person and can set a new course to my goals.

I will probably not update that much next week as I am going to be out of it for a few so I will try and post as often as I can. Please keep me in your thoughts I will miss my blog friends................see ya soon!

Silver lining

Yesterday I went for my pre op at the hospital for surgery on Monday and I had to weigh! I was nervous because I can feel that I have gained some weight so I was so ready for the outcome to be very bad. But I still am surprised when my body does this to me I only gained 5 lbs! How that is possible I cannot say I would have guessed 10 to 15...so in light of everything there is a silver lining and I am going to ride it as much as I can.

It is a go!

I went back to the Doc yesterday and he reassured me about my surgery and it is a go! I am still on the fence but I know this is for the best and that at the end of this long process and just have to tuff it out and know that my goals are on hold for a while but in the end it will be so worth it!

I will keep you guys posted and please keep posting some comments I am so going to need as much support as I can get.

Thanks!

So unsure

Hey everyone hope you all had a great weekend mine was very relaxed and much needed. My ankle is giving me more fits this week I am going to see the Doc on Wednesday I am so unsure about the surgery and I have some many questions I need answered before I move forward. Ever feel like everything you do is wrong? That is how I feel right now a lot of things are coming to head this month and I am so stressed about them I don't know where to turn. But I have been turning to food and I AM SO NOT HAPPY! Usually I can distract myself but I am having a hard time with that and I am falling fast. My goal this week is to just try and stay focused and not let me fears and anxiety get me in trouble. Fingers crossed!

The Same

Happy Friday everyone! Well no beach time this week had some things come up that need my attention. My ankle is the same still a lot of pain and I don't really think the pain med are working that well just trying to get threw each day. I am hoping to relax this weekend and just do something for me. Have a great weekend everyone!

Still around

Happy Tuesday everyone hope you all had a wonderful Labor Day! I did worked on some stuff that needed to be done for a while but no relief on my foot pain still having trouble but actually still trying to work it out. Hoping this week goes better suppose to go to the beach this weekend I am really looking forward to it.

The verdict is in!

Yesterday I went to the Doc for my ankle and he told me that I have to have surgery to correct my problems. I am actually relieved about this even though he told me it will take up to 6 months to recover. I know that sounds like a lot of time but for me it just means one day closer to being better. The pain can be so bad sometimes I cannot stand or just even walk from one point to the other. So I am ready for this happen and just be able to live a normal life again!