Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Weight is arising

Today I went to the Doctor for a check up I have been putting it off for a while but knew it was time and of course we have to have a weigh in. Well I was actually sure I had gained all of my weight back (322 lbs) and I was right but it is also plus 5 lbs. I am not sure how I feel about this. I have been stuck in the rut for so long trying to climb my way out seems there is no way to do it. I am feeling all of the things I felt before I lost the weight leg pain, hard time standing, not wanting to go out in public and so many more. I know I brought this on myself and I really do know better but it is here and I have to find a way to get back on track. In the next month there are a lot of changes coming my way and I think once I get through that I might be able to get back on track with my weight. I know I have to find a way to get back in my positive mode and just do it! I am the only one who can make this journey real and I have to find a way to do it and stop making excuses and just look inside for who I really am. I hope you all will be patient with me and still hang around I am really going to need all the support I can get and any advice you have is greatly needed. But in the end I am the only person who can make this happen.