I went for a check up with my family doctor on Tuesday and was expecting to get on the scale and I figured I might have gained about 20 lbs but my surprise was waiting 30 LBS!!! That means I am only 10 lbs from being 300 lbs again........I am so upset about this! I knew I would gain but this is so not acceptable! All of my friends are saying it will be ok you will do better when you can get around more....well they don't understand that 30 lbs is a lot on me and being even of few pounds near 300 has but me in a tail spin. The Doc put me on Prozac he said I needed to relax and not worry about the weight...come on Doc a pill is not going to help me to not worry about this..........I have to start all over and I feel that all I have accomplished in the past year is for nothing..........and that I have failed myself more than anyone. I just cannot get over it....I know how this happened and I know what to do but just knowing I am right back where I started is bumming me out!
I am back at the gym in the pool for my PT seems to help some I am still having a lot of ankle pain and the Doc is worried. Fingers crossed that in the next 6 weeks (more pt) that I will be able to get back where I need to mentally and physically.
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