Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Weight is arising

Today I went to the Doctor for a check up I have been putting it off for a while but knew it was time and of course we have to have a weigh in. Well I was actually sure I had gained all of my weight back (322 lbs) and I was right but it is also plus 5 lbs. I am not sure how I feel about this. I have been stuck in the rut for so long trying to climb my way out seems there is no way to do it. I am feeling all of the things I felt before I lost the weight leg pain, hard time standing, not wanting to go out in public and so many more. I know I brought this on myself and I really do know better but it is here and I have to find a way to get back on track. In the next month there are a lot of changes coming my way and I think once I get through that I might be able to get back on track with my weight. I know I have to find a way to get back in my positive mode and just do it! I am the only one who can make this journey real and I have to find a way to do it and stop making excuses and just look inside for who I really am. I hope you all will be patient with me and still hang around I am really going to need all the support I can get and any advice you have is greatly needed. But in the end I am the only person who can make this happen.


Martine (email: mdally@internode.on.net) said...

Mara, are you talking about me? I am in the same boat ! If it is any consolation, you are not alone. Martine

Snowdrop said...

You've done it once, you are certainly capable of doing it again, but this time you have the extra motivation that you are feeling now.

Take the time you need to sort out your issues and start with a clean sheet.

Good luck


Shelley said...

I'm sorry, Mara. I hope you can turn it back on and get down to a weight that you feel good at.

SeaShore said...

Glad to see you still around. I'm not around much any more, either, but I'm here. You can do this. Start small, no drastic changes. Sending good thoughts your way.

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