Saturday, May 17, 2008

And it begins...........

I have been on my weight loss attempt for about 2 weeks now and I am going to try and list some of my accomplishments to date and my goals I have set for the future.

Starting Weight: 322
Goal Weight: 130
Weight to Loss: 192
Weight to Loss each week: 2lbs
Time to loss weight: appox. 1 1/2 yrs

well, my story is probably not unlike many of yours. I have been over weight for about 20 years and in the last few years I have really noticed the toll that it has taken on my body and my everyday life.

I started gaining weight after I gave birth to my son in 1987. It was about 6 months after his birth and I was busy with working going to college (you know life!). I really did not pay much attention to myself or my needs I was just running around in circles trying to stay above water with this screaming person on my hip. My greatest joy in life is my son and I would not trade that for anything but I would have really taken a good hard look at myself back then and tried to not be where I am now.

One of the many reasons for losing weight is that trying to find some nice clothing for overweight women is near to impossible. Have you seen what they put out there!!! Trying to find the right fit and look is like looking for a needle in a hay stack and the selection is minimal at best. I finally gave up and just wear black nylon (that’s right ladies) elastic pants (I own 7 pair) so I don't have to worry about it any more. I am known as the lady in black at work and it really upsets me that I cannot find anything that I feel really good in. I also do not like my arms. Come on who wants to see an overweight person with flabby arms wearing a sleeveless shirt having the fat swing in the air? I know I don't. I just really would like to look into the mirror and say you know what I like me.

I also find that being overweight makes me so self conscious. I notice that when I am walking somewhere I look down a lot I do not make eye contact with people just so I don't have to see them looking at me. Because lets be honest most people find fat people disgusting and are not afraid to let you know it to your face. I have never really been very active (not since my teens) and just worked a lot and came home and sat on the couch and then went to bed. I never got up and moved around so the weight just kept coming on and on. And I never really worried what people thought of me or my weight so I never really thought of changing my lifestyle. But when my life changed last year I began to think outside of the box and said this year my life was worth the change. I am worth it!!!

Changing my lifestyle will put me in the healthy lifestyle that I need to achieve the goals I have set for myself. Wanting it and doing it are two different things and you really have to want it to make it happen. I know it will be a great struggle and hard work but I am determined to change my life and make it a great one. I joined a gym a couple of weeks ago and also hired a personal trainer, Donna (she is great). I find that having someone help me is a good way for me to stay focused. I highly recommend it to anyone thinking of doing it. But you need to decide what will work for you don't give up you can accomplish your goal.

I hope you will join me on my journey and will join me on my blog helping me to stay focused and to share your stories with me (all comments are welcome). In the next couple of weeks I hope to add many things to my blog so we can all communicate more actively. I am not a writer just a person who has a story and any suggestions are welcome and don't be embarrassed your story is my are welcome here.