Monday, November 24, 2008

The Experience

Sorry for the delay everyone but I have been really busy this weekend.......On Saturday afternoon my friends Cindy and Dee took me shopping for jeans. On our way I was really nervous about the whole experience and was not sure what to expect. When we arrived at the store my heart was beating so fast I thought I would pass out - but I started looking around and we were greeted by a wonderful sales girl who was more than happy to assist us. Dee was looking for a suit so she was off browsing and Cindy and I were asking the sales girl what she thought might be a great pair of jeans to start with. I headed to the dressing room with my jeans and started to feel a little light headed I got my footing and started putting them on. Well let me just say I was a little surprised first of all I have dropped a size and the jeans were not as bad as I thought they would be - I am very self conscious about my body and as you all know jeans are not that forgiving so I was expecting to really hate what I saw in the mirror and yes I still have some issues but in all it was not as bad as I had imagined. I do have some imperfections and I still have a long way to go before I will ever be happy with who I am and what my body is but in all I have to say I was surprised. Yes there were some tears but Dee and Cindy were there to support me and let me know that this is something I need to do. After getting over my shock about how I really look in clothes that fit (Dee reminded me you are not used to clothes that actually fit you right so the shock is normal and feeling uncomfortable is ok-she is so wise!)

The last pair of jeans were the winners they have a boot flare and they have the really cute pockets on the back (I have a butt - oh how I have missed seeing you lol) and they are dark which I really like.

I proceeded to try on some other items shirts, jackets etc. I found this really great jacket (I have always wanted jeans and a really cool jacket together) and also this really cute shirt (Dee had me get a belt to help with the jeans) and can you believe it to my surprise I have went down a shirt size and I have lost 3 bra cups (WOW). I guess all the worrying I have been doing over not losing enough weight or sizes is once again all in my head and I have to learn that this takes time and because it does take time I need to be patient (which is hard for me) and realize I am well on my way to what I want - a new me!

No pics today having some trouble with downloading them so I will take some new ones this week and post them for you guys. A special thanks to Dee and Cindy for going with me on this new journey and for helping me see that wearing baggy clothes is not who I am anymore - I am worthy of looking good.


Lynn Haraldson-Bering said...

What a great blog entry! I'm so happy for you. The mirror can be our friend. I hope you'll check yourself out more often. Can't wait to see the photos.

I'm just so proud of you, Mara. So many people never get to the point you're at in weight loss - the part where you start to question everything. The journey gets a little easier once your brain starts settling in to a new way of thinking. Trust me.

Shelley said...

I found your blog over the weekend and have been waiting for the jeans update! Funny, I bought the exact same pair a couple of months ago and I love them! I feel like I look really good when I wear them - I hope you do, too.

congratulations on the new clothes - you really deserve to show off the body that you have worked so hard for!

Juice said...

Yay! Glad this was a positive experience for you. Can't wait to see the pictures!