The Experience

Sorry for the delay everyone but I have been really busy this weekend.......On Saturday afternoon my friends Cindy and Dee took me shopping for jeans. On our way I was really nervous about the whole experience and was not sure what to expect. When we arrived at the store my heart was beating so fast I thought I would pass out - but I started looking around and we were greeted by a wonderful sales girl who was more than happy to assist us. Dee was looking for a suit so she was off browsing and Cindy and I were asking the sales girl what she thought might be a great pair of jeans to start with. I headed to the dressing room with my jeans and started to feel a little light headed I got my footing and started putting them on. Well let me just say I was a little surprised first of all I have dropped a size and the jeans were not as bad as I thought they would be - I am very self conscious about my body and as you all know jeans are not that forgiving so I was expecting to really hate what I saw in the mirror and yes I still have some issues but in all it was not as bad as I had imagined. I do have some imperfections and I still have a long way to go before I will ever be happy with who I am and what my body is but in all I have to say I was surprised. Yes there were some tears but Dee and Cindy were there to support me and let me know that this is something I need to do. After getting over my shock about how I really look in clothes that fit (Dee reminded me you are not used to clothes that actually fit you right so the shock is normal and feeling uncomfortable is ok-she is so wise!)

The last pair of jeans were the winners they have a boot flare and they have the really cute pockets on the back (I have a butt - oh how I have missed seeing you lol) and they are dark which I really like.




I proceeded to try on some other items shirts, jackets etc. I found this really great jacket (I have always wanted jeans and a really cool jacket together) and also this really cute shirt (Dee had me get a belt to help with the jeans) and can you believe it to my surprise I have went down a shirt size and I have lost 3 bra cups (WOW). I guess all the worrying I have been doing over not losing enough weight or sizes is once again all in my head and I have to learn that this takes time and because it does take time I need to be patient (which is hard for me) and realize I am well on my way to what I want - a new me!

No pics today having some trouble with downloading them so I will take some new ones this week and post them for you guys. A special thanks to Dee and Cindy for going with me on this new journey and for helping me see that wearing baggy clothes is not who I am anymore - I am worthy of looking good.