Finding my way

This week has been such and eye opener for me.....PT is going ok but my ankle is still a little weak and I am unable to move forward with my exercises so I have been working overtime this weekend getting ready for next week so fingers crossed and good thoughts I am going to need them. I also have been working on getting my eating under control again and taking a lot thing out of my habits and putting the good things back in. It has been so hard for me to stay on track I am a bored eater. I eat when I am bored and being unable to go out just to go to the market is so frustrating for me and I can only watch so much TV I am so over all of it! I am ready to move forward and get myself back to where I was and then move on down to my goal. I know it is going to be such a challenge just to get back where I was before all of this but I am actually looking forward to walking again and just going back to the gym.

The thing I have learned the most from this experience is to never give up because if you do you will only disappoint yourself.

Still hanging in there!

Hey everyone I have not been lost just really busy with PT and getting things back to some kind of normal. I have been working on the 30 lbs I have gained and trying to get back into a regular routine which is tuff considering you get our of touch with what you know is right and what you want to do (be lazy ha)! But I had a set back I twisted my ankle last week (we had snow) and it has been really sore and tuff the pain is more than I can take so I think I might have to take some pain pills (which I hate) but really need. The PT director and I feel I am on track just need to keep it up and just stay focused she always tells me there is a light at the end of the tunnel just stay focused and it will come......not soon enough for me.

I hope everyone is doing well I miss chatting with everyone....just remember stay true to who you are and your goals will be a reality!

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Oh no is that a pulled muscle?

Hey everyone hope your new year is starting off on the right foot.

Pt is going well worked on walking without crutches it went ok my balance is an issue but fingers crossed I am one step closer to being normal again. But I think I pulled a muscle in my left leg (surgery was on right) and now I am battling just standing up! I was telling my Mom I think I need to use my walker again just to get around LOL! But each day is better and better I have high hopes for a great recovery soon.

How have all of you been doing? Still having computer problems (not able to get on blog and see post) so please keep in touch I miss everyone!

Happy New Year Welcome 2010!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a safe and joyous day. I am working on my new goals for 2010 and hoping I can start them soon. Ankle is ok today some pain still but working on my PT as we speak. Let's all start this year off with a bang!

Blog time

Hey everyone hope you all had a wonderful holiday! Still having computer problems so I am not able to see your comments which are greatly appreciated so please keep posting I am hoping to be back up and running 100% soon. Hang in in with me!

Merry Christmas everyone!

Hoping you guys all have a wonderful Christmas and enjoy all of your time with your families!

30 lbs and Counting!

I went for a check up with my family doctor on Tuesday and was expecting to get on the scale and I figured I might have gained about 20 lbs but my surprise was waiting 30 LBS!!! That means I am only 10 lbs from being 300 lbs again........I am so upset about this! I knew I would gain but this is so not acceptable! All of my friends are saying it will be ok you will do better when you can get around more....well they don't understand that 30 lbs is a lot on me and being even of few pounds near 300 has but me in a tail spin. The Doc put me on Prozac he said I needed to relax and not worry about the weight...come on Doc a pill is not going to help me to not worry about this..........I have to start all over and I feel that all I have accomplished in the past year is for nothing..........and that I have failed myself more than anyone. I just cannot get over it....I know how this happened and I know what to do but just knowing I am right back where I started is bumming me out!

I am back at the gym in the pool for my PT seems to help some I am still having a lot of ankle pain and the Doc is worried. Fingers crossed that in the next 6 weeks (more pt) that I will be able to get back where I need to mentally and physically.

Not off the hook just yet!

Yesterday I went for my monthly check up with the Doctor and he says I am doing well but I do need to have 6 more weeks of PT. I am happy but sad also I was so hoping to be able to drive and be able to get back to my life. But it could be worse I am just glad I am getting there and soon it will be all worth it. I will be working in the pool at the gym (PT says it will help the healing process) so I am off to do that hopefully this weekend (I am so at the mercy of others to drive me. I am just glad I am at this stage in my recovery and I can see the light at the end of tunnel.

Success

Tuesday at PT I got to put on shoes on both feet and now that means I am well on my way! I have to use crutches for the next few weeks and then hopefully fingers crossed sometime in January I am on the go. I was asked to work on my PT in the pool at the gym so off to the gym I go next week I actually missed it funny :)! I cannot wait to get back to my regular routine and get back to my goals. Happy Saturday everyone!