Out of touch!

Sorry guys I have been out of touch but Friday I was so sick I did not even to to work. I ate at Applebees the night before and I knew the meal looked and smelled funny but I ate it anyway and I paid the price later ewww! And even at the end of the meal I told them I was not satisfied and they charged me anyway!!! So Applebees is off of my list of places to eat.

I am feeling better today finally able to eat some solid foods and back to work. Going to the the Doc tomorrow for my ankle keep your fingers crossed he will help me find the relief I so want.

Happy Monday!

Same as before

Well this week is not going any better my ankle is so not working with me and I am so tired of talking about it and not being able to move. I go to the Doctor next Tuesday and I am hoping (fingers crossed) that he will see how much pain I am in and fix it! No medicating, no physical therapy or anything else that he thinks will work that does not involve 100% relief for me! I know I know I am being mean but I am so over this!

This weekend I am going to spend some time with friends and also just rest and keep my ankle from letting me do what it is that I need to do. I am still working on my eating habits it has been tuff because when you fall right back into your old habits it is a lot of work!

It has been way to long

Happy Monday everyone! Well my plans for the beach got cancelled due to the weather but I did spend a nice weekend with friends and I was reminded just how nice it is just to relax. My ankle is acting up so badly that it is getting to the point of not being able to walk a straight line or just being able to stand. I am going to the Doctor on the 2nd and hoping we can come up with something that will give me a lot of relief. I really did not look after my eating habits this weekend so I am going to try and do better during the week and focus on just getting my ankle up to being able to due something. It is just so frustrating to not be able to go to the gym and enjoy my time as I used to do it seems so long since I was really working on my goals and I feel very sad for that.

Finding my space

Happy Friday everyone. Well I have been keeping to my word and having salad everyday but......of course there is a but.....I have been trying to keep myself from all the extra stuff I love. I have gotten back into the routine of having ice cream everyday (I know it is wrong) and I am finding it hard to break the cycle. I am going back to the beach tomorrow and I hope to clear my head again (it is nice to know the beach is my comfort zone. But in all my ankle is still not working right and I am going to try and go back to the gym on Monday and work on the cycle or something that will not hurt ankle anymore than it already is.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Neglected

Yesterday was a pretty good day (my ankle is still not working right ) but I am refocusing on my eating habits. As I have said many times in the past few months I have neglected it as well as they gym. I am a salad person I LOVE IT!!! So each day for lunch my goal is to eat a salad with some protein and keep it on course for the rest of the month. I was once told to keep a habit you have to be consistent for at least 28 days so that is what my goal is for the month. I figure I have to start somewhere and since my ankle is keeping me from doing my routine at the gym I can at least work on my eating habits again. But chocolate again is my enemy why is it so tuff to give it up - I know I know it is chocolate!!!!! and my weakness lol!!!

Being reminded

I had a great time this weekend at the beach but there were some reminders that I am so off track on my routine. We went out on Friday night and I wore my jeans and let me just say WOW ! That 10 lbs I gained really shows in those jeans - besides not being able to breath I was so uncomfortable the whole night I could not enjoy myself. So I am going to TRY and re motivate myself this week (if ankle will cooperate!!!!) and get these 10 lbs off of me soon. I really feel terrible for sliding back into my old routine and for not keeping up with what I know is the right thing to do. Keep me in your thoughts!!!!

Off to the beach!

Happy Friday everyone!!!! I am off to the beach this weekend and I am actually looking forward to it. It has been a slow week ankle still giving me fits and not much of anything else. I am keeping my sights on my goal but with no luck but I am trying to keep my head high and just be who I am! Have a great weekend!!!!

You go girl!

You go Kelly! I really like that she is fighting back to the critics about her weight. Boy if they think she is overweight I must be a whale!!!!

http://www.cnn.com/2009/SHOWBIZ/08/11/kelly.clarkson.weight/index.html

Words that hurt

This weekend I spend some time with some friends I have not seen in a while and it was good but confusing???

I have talked before about how words hurt a person and that people don't seem to care what they say or do. My friends and I were just hanging out and you know conversations go from silly to very weird lol! Something came up about one of their friends and they went on about how she was overweight and how bad she is looking. Ok I am sitting there and they don't seem to notice my reaction. I know I should not let this bother me but it makes me wonder what they say about me when I am not around? People these days don't really care how they treat others and to come from two people I think are my friends kinda hurt my feelings (I know I know)and I feel sorry for there friend because they obviously judge her by her weight and not the kind of person she is. I so define myself by my weight (I know it is wrong) but I am very insecure about the way I look and to hear two people who are always telling me you look amazing you have done so well is kind of weird for me. Do they really mean what they say or are they just being polite?

You should never judge anyone and if you do please don't pick something that is obviously something they are working on.

Still the same

Well today is another day full of pain and getting no where fast. I have been working on my physical therapy for my ankle and there is some progress just not a lot. I am hoping by this time next week that it will be a lot better and I can at least walk a straight line. Keep your fingers crossed for me everyone I am going to need it. Have a great weekend!!!

Still hanging in!

I am still hanging but not doing any better. My ankle is keeping me down and I am just so not happy. I want to get right back up and start again and let this depress me. Boy I am such a whiner!!!!!! But I will get better soon I hope and back on track.

I cannot win!

Well this past weekend I was starting to recover from my rash and some other aliments (go I am OLD!) but on Sunday my good friend the ankle decided to give me some pain. As of this morning it is completely right back where it was a couple of months ago. Why can't I win! It seems every time I take a step forward I am stepping 3 or 4 back. I just want to feel whole again and not feel as if I am failing.